is it truly love or just a sick frustration
I want someone to meet my reasonable expectations
of what caring can be
I want a soul who is well-versed in the art to endear
itself to me
herself to me

here is actual lust for an actual someone
but a someone who does not exist
actually feeling arched spines and held wrists
but it's someone who cannot exist
I should be living in a dating sim
with someone I cannot resist

I only need your slender frame to support me
no matter how unbelievable it sounds I'll believe it if you say it
how I can lie here and want with every fiber
if I keep thinking then one day I'll be able to act perfectly
a monster if only because that's what I still call myself
now I don't have to wonder which ones want to
because in here they always do

yes it's actual lust for an actual someone
a target who does not exist
actually feeling arched spines and held wrists
but that's something that can never exist
I would be living in a dating sim
for someone I cannot resist
why aren't I spending every waking moment
with someone as perfect as this